Unsure, Uncertainty, and Query

Doubting yourself will only torture you mentally and emotionally, and will start to appear in your physical appearance when it’s enough. Everyone has a limit that should never be crossed because it will only make it worse and might end up at a certain point in life where you do not yourselves anymore or anyone else. Your soul will feel like it’s floating outside of your body. You are there but not really. Uncertainty is the poison that will destroy your future and present decisions. Rifts and misunderstanding in relationships. Always keep a smile but also take a check out meaning let yourselves heal rather than letting it consume you and your entire existence.

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Show some love to yourself and others. Your smile and little things that you say might help make a huge difference in someone’s life. It does not cost any money, just some effort, little caring, the most important one being a human being.

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Important to embrace the present and not to overthink about future. Do not doubts get between you and someone you care about. Your questions will be answered, enjoy the mysterious journey and let yourself relax and breath.

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To let yourself breath, first learn to love yourself. You can not make your whole existence be about someone else until you have created your own. Do not mix it or else it will only destroy you. You are your own person. You have your own life and it does not belong to anyone but only to you. Heal your emotions and forgive. However, do not forget it takes time so do not put pressure on yourselves, if it’s taking forever to let go of the past, forgiving others, and healing yourselves. Start from loving yourselves by giving praises to yourself when you accomplished something or a treat for achieving that you have been trying for so long. It all takes time and there is nothing wrong with that. 🙃

The Cross College, Campus, Course ZINE Collab Project!

Pictures That I Originally Chose For My First Image:

To start this project, I used these three pictures above using the Adobe Photoshop app. The picture with a girl was my main background picture. After using different Photoshop tools to alter the image the way I want it to be, I inserted the other two images which were also from Pixabay to create the full look. I used the adjustment tool for hue saturation and color balance, and the filter tool for swirls, texture, blurriness, glossy, and toolbox on the side to crop and delete the background of the first image.

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“Technology Should Improve Your Life..Not Become Your Life” ~BILLY COX

The main concept of this image was to portray how technology can negatively impact someone’s mental health yet it can be positive at the same time considering the use of different bright colors in that swirl image which had a bunch of technical terms that are now invisible.

Original Pictures For My Second Image That I Chose:

Although, the project mentions to have at least three images, however, I decide to create more because of how therapeutic and enjoyable it is. The main reason is because of my friend, Samira, who is also in this class “CT101”. She showed me her final look for the project and I was amazed and fascinated by her picture. Due to that, I decided to recreate the look, the first one that I created was because it was a class assignment and I didn’t do with enthusiastic or willingly. However, seeing how creative and beautiful her was, I searched for more technology-based images from Pixabay.com since the project was based on that and chose these two images.

Adjustment of the two Images.

First, a thing that I did was adjust the image according to my idea. I wanted the background to be unpredictable. Technology can be empowering or a person’s downfall. I decided to use the second image because it gives positivity vibe even though the background seems negative due to its unpredictability yet little constructive. The colors of the background image are contradicting it’s real look in my opinion, unknown but could be a good unknown destination.

Hue saturation and Color Balance

The trees in the cell phone represent how things can look positive but can take you to places where you might never have thought of which can be negative as you can see the person is giving off different vibes from the bright colors.

I used the color balance and hue saturation to contradict the message that the image is portraying about technology and life. I also used a lightening effect for the last image using a pink color tone.

Lightening Effect

I had a good time creating the second project look compare to the first one because of the vibe that I felt from it. I am proud of myself on how creative I was. I had a lot of fun creating it.

Temporary moments

I was very stressed out about somethings lately. It wasn’t eustress, more like distress. I always let things that matter a lot to me control my emotions. I never thought that speaking about it helps, but my way of looking at it has changed. I learned that speaking to someone is really helpful only if you speak to someone who understands, who cares about you, knows what’s going on, and you have this emotional connection with that person. My sister was that person who gave me a mental and emotional relief. My mind felt more relaxed than it did a few days ago. One thing that caused more problem was that I always speak what’s on my mind and this gets me in a lot of trouble. It’s been like that almost half of my life so I tried changing it. Till today, I have never been able to change it because it’s part of who I am. And I can not change it. However, I can improve it. My honesty makes people hate me. I am that someone who is easy to be hated, harder to love.

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I wanted to help someone, but I didn’t know the healthier way of doing it. So I did the way I could do. I never realized that you can not help someone who does not want to be helped. You can not change someone’s perspective if they are ignorant or have a fixed mindset. The only thing I did was hurt myself more and let it’s negativity impact my mental health. It’s good to give a try, but not to the point that it starts to affect you negatively.

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I am happy. Happier than before. Writing helped me. I appreciate CT101. I am very thankful for taking this class.

My Favorite Two Things😋😴

As much as I enjoy cleaning, organizing, and cooking, I enjoy eating and sleeping even more. My love for food is like my love for my religion and myself.

Food is a necessity that other people love and motivating conversation can not fulfill. The only thing it will do is that it will instigate more hunger. When I am hungry, I can not think straight nor I can keep a polite conversation.

People love and care but they can betray and hurt your feelings. Food only gives you love that is sincere and wholehearted.

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I can not even begin to emphasize the importance of sleeping, even though, we have so many things to do. My love for sleeping officially descended once I started college. I am always ready to sleep no matter where I am or who I am with. You know you had a good sleep when you have a less “beauty sleeping” look, and more like a drooling and a troll look. 🤡

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You want to become something that you like, then go to sleep. Prioritize yourself, your mental and physical health, your sleep, and your food.

MY MALEFICENT GIFS 😎

Creating this GIF project was very fun and interesting. It reminded me of the time when we were exploring DS106 and I was seeing some of the best and creative GIF’s that I wanted to do. However, at the time I felt I was not capable due to not knowing how to do and the skills to do it. Being able to do that made me really proud of myself.

These two were my favorite GIF’s. I really enjoyed creating it by using different adjustment tools, filters, animation, and styles. One of my difficulties is trying to find the correct tool that I am interested in or wanted to use. With little bit of help from my friend who is also in the same class, I was able to achieve the look I wanted it. My next goal is to create a GIF from a video and I think that will be really cool and refreshing.

Farewell To My Beloved CT101

I never thought I would be writing this but here we are.

It has been fun and exciting for past few weeks being part of CT101. I have learned much more than I have learned in my other classes. Being in this class has taught me so many new things, creative ways to explore my creativity using different tools and techniques which I am very thankful of. It was a very expressive and innovative journey for me. I will miss being part of this class. This is my personal website. 

My Personal Website 🤪

Personally, I am not really sure what this website is really going to about but a few mixture of things that I could pinpoint right now would be random goofy things, interesting psychology facts, my personal point of view on life, poems, quotes, & love or marriage. I might even talk about my morning routines or what I do on a daily basis. ‘

I am also going to explore my creativity, personal interests, what I enjoy doing, dislikes, favorite books that I have read or the ones I have not. Why do I enjoy cleaning, reading, and being organized. How do I manage my college and personal life. I will be posting different and random things. Lastly, I am going to be posting things about Zayn Malik and Lee Seung Gi.

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YEAH, THAT FEELS NICE!
DAMN!
OHH HELL NAW!

Personal Hygienes

It’s very important to take care of yourself and be clean. You do not want to ruin someone’s face expression or their nostrils by not showering or brushing your teeth.

My face when people breath stinks…