Temporary moments

I was very stressed out about somethings lately. It wasn’t eustress, more like distress. I always let things that matter a lot to me control my emotions. I never thought that speaking about it helps, but my way of looking at it has changed. I learned that speaking to someone is really helpful only if you speak to someone who understands, who cares about you, knows what’s going on, and you have this emotional connection with that person. My sister was that person who gave me a mental and emotional relief. My mind felt more relaxed than it did a few days ago. One thing that caused more problem was that I always speak what’s on my mind and this gets me in a lot of trouble. It’s been like that almost half of my life so I tried changing it. Till today, I have never been able to change it because it’s part of who I am. And I can not change it. However, I can improve it. My honesty makes people hate me. I am that someone who is easy to be hated, harder to love.

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I wanted to help someone, but I didn’t know the healthier way of doing it. So I did the way I could do. I never realized that you can not help someone who does not want to be helped. You can not change someone’s perspective if they are ignorant or have a fixed mindset. The only thing I did was hurt myself more and let it’s negativity impact my mental health. It’s good to give a try, but not to the point that it starts to affect you negatively.

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I am happy. Happier than before. Writing helped me. I appreciate CT101. I am very thankful for taking this class.

Be Patient

It’s easy to say “be patient” but the hardest thing is to achieve it and implement it. Always look at things closely, observe them, try to be understanding about it, put yourself in their position, and watch what you say. If you want others to love you or you want to love someone then try to find it in yourself first that loveliness before you try to do it with others. Believe that you are lovable before you try to look in someone else because you will never find it till you learn the meaning of it. Learn how to love yourself, how to be patient with yourself, to not be harsh with yourself and be understanding with yourself.